Another one of those late night ones.

Seems I’m back to “real life”. It’s after 3 in the morning [waiting for AFI hour, just because I can’t sleep] and for the first time in over a week I don’t have company, I don’t have an adventure to look forward to and I’m obviously back on tumblr.

There are so many things I want to say, so many things I want to show the world. But you know what, just being out there and living my life and not worrying so much for a week was so good.

I can not wait until it gets even better, I can not wait for summer, I can not wait for the weeks and months and even years to come. I haven’t felt like this in ages. This is due to so many great things and even greater people and although I’m obviously constantly worried and skeptical and side-eying the universe, it seems this year might not be so bad after all.

In other news, I found out that these exist:

http://fuckyeahchrisdos.tumblr.com/

http://fuckyeahchrishead.tumblr.com/

Yep, that’s two insta-follows right there. Especially the Head one because he’s my secret hero, and it warms my heart that there is a blog for him. I also apologise in advance for the A-F I’m going to undoubtedly spam on here. But then again I do not apologise at all.

Gay Bus

Dear Tumblr,

First things first: you may have noticed I’m not doing the thing with the 20 fandom-posts in a queue anymore. That’s because I’m actually a] trying to live a life b] still not cool with the copyright thing c] also trying to be more of an original-content-person. So I’ll like your stuff and maybe here and there reblog something epic. Cool? Cool.

Second: my baby Annso has a tumblr: annsoapples.tumblr.com and she’s amazing, and she makes the cutest art, so you should follow her.

Third: as you can see, my amazing boyface also has a tumblr and he writes beautiful words. [Insert story about duh he’s an English lit student and duh how can I not think they are beautiful I’m a word nerd I love words.]

But more importantly, they are very true words. They are words on issues that I also feel strongly about. [And also this video is amazing and everyone should watch it:]

zekesgotwheels:

So, there were these ads, right, put up by this wacked out insane-o-complex Christian group in the last couple of days that tried to purport the idea that homosexuality was a disease that could be cured. Here’s a link. (http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2012/apr/12/christian-anti-gay-ads-buses?INTCMP=SRCH)

Now, I don’t care where you come from, what ‘justification’ you have for believing in such a fact; if you truly believe that one person finding sexual and romantic pleasure in another of the same gender is a disease, do us all a favour. Remove yourself from the gene pool. I don’t care how you do it – snip your balls, ties your tubes, shotgun mouthwash -, whatever. This world, in all its beauty, will never ever sustain itself for your close minded ideology. Give up now. History has always proven that autocratic forms of social control provokes resistance – the Israelites in Egypt, the Irish under English rule, the Palestinians under Israeli oppression, to name three from an innumerable list – so change your way or recycle your body mass and oxygen into something more useful, please.

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It makes me horribly sad that we’re still stuck in this gender binary, which makes no sense, and that people almost always have to go through all this hurt, discomfort, shame, you-name-it, before they can finally open their eyes and realise that maybe whatever society tells us we are, isn’t who we actually are.

So here’s my story:

I too went through multiple phases of finding my identity. In fact, I went through multiple phases in my life where I hated girls’ clothes and loved playing only with “boy toys”, then a long rebellion against anything ‘too mainstream’ or ‘too girly’ [I didn’t want to be like “all the other girls”] happened. Does that signify anything? Maybe. To me, that just shows I was trying to find myself. I’ve always been touching the boundaries so to speak. Trying to find out the other end of the spectrum. ‘Not shaving’ was as easy a thing to believe in at 14 as ‘not eating meat’ in my mind. It is now a matter of personal preference, but it is still incredibly heartbreaking that there are girls out there who would love to do their own thing but just don’t - but that’s a rant on beauty standards I’m not going to shove down your throats. To make a long story short, not caring about your appearance in the same way as ‘the norm’ is a tricky thing to do in a privileged high school, but doing this at a young age probably helped me grow into the person I am right now. I knew I’d rather be proud of myself for doing what I believed in, than go with the flow and regret it because I was living a lie.

My first girlfriend was convinced I was one hundred per cent gay. I’ve always known I’m not. I’ve had mostly heterosexual relationships, yet I obviously also don’t identify as straight. I do however feel the same kind of hesitance towards speaking out for LGBTQ rights as my boyface here, because… well. Where do I fit in? I’m a white, privileged individual who is seemingly living a life that fit the heteronormative and thus don’t get any of the discredit. Living a ‘straight’ lifestyle most of the time doesn’t make you straight in identity, yet it doesn’t really give you the ‘right’ to speak against it. Does it?

I think what bothers me most, is that you can’t tell from the outside. And I’m conflicted. Because it damn well shouldn’t be! People’s gender or sexuality shouldn’t be an issue. Never. In whatever situation and whatever time. It’s 2012 now, we should know better than the ridiculous heteronormative. It shouldn’t matter what or who you are and who you are attracted to. It shouldn’t be able to be ‘seen on the outside’ because it should just not be an issue.

I am a very visual person and I like being outspoken and standing up for what I believe in. That’s why this is so frustrating. Because it’s about trying to make it acceptable for anyone in the world to do whatever they want to do without them feeling like they have to because not doing so is wrong. From the outside, it feels like I’m enforcing the norm: by wearing dresses and living a ‘straight’ lifestyle, whatever that is… 

I feel like I want to be part of the crowd that is trying to get their voices heard, but I feel like my voice doesn’t fit in with theirs all of the time. I still think that shouldn’t stop anyone from speaking out, so I’m glad the discussion is out there. I’m glad the campaign got pulled. I’m glad we’re slowly walking the path of progress.

And sometimes, just because two people fall in love have a different set of genitals, doesn’t make them straight. These people aren’t ill; they’re beautiful. They’re in love. They’re themselves.

I couldn’t have said it better myself. You are not sick in the slightest, if anything I think more people should be like you. Thank you for sharing your story. And I just wanted to say, I love you for who you are and I hope you know this and continue to believe in yourself like I believe in you.

I guess what matters in the end, is what you think. We can be ‘straight’ and believe in equality as much as we can be ‘not-straight’ and believe in equality. I think we should just be ‘us’ and never stop fighting for equality.

So that’s it. That’s my story and there’s no good way to end this, but hey. I have a billion words to write. Cheers.

You have no idea. This had been sitting in my drafts for months. Just waiting for the moment I could post this.

And today I feel it’s safe to say. A good fucking life. That’s what you’re doing to me, and I can’t express in words how happy that makes me and how thankful I am.

(Source: sydamarie)

bullshitopportunist:

limbo champion of the world. actually just a photo taken at a strange moment. 

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So what happens when I leave tumblr land for a while?

DOS ENDS UP GETTING A TUMBLR AND IT ENDS UP BEING GLORIOUS! Go check out and follow, my friends.


I soooooo wish I could take my beast of a camera to Anti-Week, because I’m sure I would end up with many many great photos.

What is Anti-Week you ask? Oh it’s only very soon. It’s when first there are two A-F performances at Groezrock, then two nights of crazyness on May 1 and 2, and then the glorious Anti-Fest on May 3rd. It’s also known as ChrisTwomas Come Early. YEAAHHHH!

(Source: poppunksnotdead182)

It’s pretty much RULE that my companions watch Doctor Who with me - even if I have to introduce it to them and turn them into fangirls. IT’S THE RULE THAT DOESN’T FAIL AND WHEN SOMEONE NEW COMES ALONG AND SAYS “WANNA WATCH DOCTOR WHO?” I don’t have to think twice because Doctor Who is always interesting and watching with a companion is the best thing ever and me having a guy propose that to me is like BEST. THING. EVER. the end.

(Source: stephwinchester)

Being Human episodes 4x03-07

So… I haven’t made bullet lists for the past few episodes because I was busy living life buttttt tonight is the finale and SO! Time to catch up on one big bullet list of thoughts so far and a bit of speculation :D :D :D fun.

• HAL! Oh man. What an emotional roller coaster you have been to us! First, we were unsure of you. Then we saw your half naked body and your charm and wit and we fell in love with you. Then you got the burn and we felt sorry for you. NOW! Now, I’m just terrified. More on that later.
• I just have to get it out of the way: that goth chick was both excruciatingly annoying and brilliant. She was brilliant precisely because she was so horribly annoying. Too bad she took the crazy vampire with her :< I liked him.
• Although that episode was pretty good, especially toward the end. Action! Dynamics! Tom and Hal being brilliant. ♡
• CUTLER! is now definitely one of my favourites this season. More on him later.
• The Kirby episode was amazing. Hal was amazing. Tom was amazing. Annie was amazing. Kirby was also amazing. It was a really really brilliant episode. Obviously the gay dads scene was terrific! ♡ ♡ ♡
• The Adam episode was good. I was unsure at first, but it’s definitely really well done. The idea of the succubus. The housemates looking inward more. I didn’t really care for the press thing at first, they could’ve worked on that a liiiittle bit more. But then when Cutler got to be epic and that stupid journalist went stupid… Oh man. Hal and Annie teamwork was really nice to see.
• The episode after this one wasn’t too great. The redeeming factor being Allison. Allison won that episode for me. I really didn’t care much for Annie or Hal’s stories. Tom and Allison [and Cutler] stole it for me. Okay, Hal’s story turned out to be important and that’s great and all and of course he was amazing doing whatever he was doing, but it wasn’t the best. Then Annie… I guess she needed a door to meet up with Eve, but that whole thing could have been handled better.
• Brings me to EVE! Holy. I don’t get how killing herself before the old ones even arrive would make any difference? But but but the thing that really scares me is the implication that she has to get past Annie. Is Annie going to be written out? All the questions!
• Alex… I liked her attitude as a ghost. I did not like her one bit when she was alive. Funny, how that works. But since Hal promised to ‘sort her out’, I hope they show that.
• To come back to Hal, it ended on a major cliffhanger, didn’t it? I’m trying not to think about it.
• CUTLER’S BACKSTORY! SOOO GOOOOD! I love how we also saw more of Hal, but through Cutler. What a bastard. And Cutler is such a genius villain just because he’s so rubbish [but also brilliant] at it.
• But I’m sure Tom and Cutler will be geniuses in this episode. I especially have high hopes for Tom and I hope he sticks around a bit. Hal too, but… Anyway, if we make it past the vampirocalypse, I hope Tom and Allison get a chance. They made a most adorable pair. ♡ If not… well, then I hope the series ends on a good note. Obviously. I’m a bit scared because Torchwood totally went weird and short after their two amazing series, and it kind of feels a bit like that, but not totally because this series has been pretty flawless and amazing and a very good follow-up to the end of series 3… But I’m not sure where they want to go next?
• I was hoping for 13 episodes. I was a bit surprised to find it all going so fast!! u_u
• And now I don’t have any patience anymore and I want it to be tonight already and aaaaahhhhhhhh!!

viamh:

{120218} Happy early birthday to Julia! on Flickr.

many hearts to Lds

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

note to self

GIVE UP ON SPOTIFY

Your OCD will cause you to make sad faces at your last.fm all day. Not good. Not good.

FM Static - Hey Now

[Hi, nice to meet you, I’m Vief, I’m a total sap. I’ve been listening to this song on repeat 4-5 times now. YEAHHH!

Or, yaaayeuhh.]

Relevant to my life: check.

Every minute I’m not with you I hope I see you soon: check.

There’s just something that happens when you walk into the room: check.

And you give me this feeling: check.

It’s like no other feeling: check.

It knocks me off my feet: check.

It just kind of happened somehow: check.

Please don’t ask me what I like about you ‘cause it’s every little thing you do: check.

givgiv:

I find myself identifying with Hal. Probably because of the OCD.

I seem not to be giving myself time to do a bullet list but allow myself to reblog. OH MAN LOOK AT HIS FACE :< :< :< and I find myself identifying with Hal as well. His OCD > George’s OCD.

Have I mentioned how much I’m INTO THIS BAND RIGHT NOW yet?

They are glorious and that “realist pop punk” tag is kind of exactly why I feel like these boys are going to dominate my 2012.

(Source: sheiswe)

dasselbstgesprach:

RENT Filmed Live on Broadway

(It’s the entire thing!)

1:05:15 onwards = my life. :D :D :D MY LIFE IS RENT WHEEEEE

It’s not like I don’t have this on my laptop. But finding this is glorious. IT’S GLORIOUS. But now I wanna watch Rent all day. Duh.

upon the 27th hour of being awake

[cheated a little, couldn’t help from nodding off slightly once the lecturer dimmed the light and it was time for Shakespearean quotations, aiai]

I locked myself out of the house

I, who leaves the key in the lock upon not forgetting it

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THIS IS NOT GOING TO PLAN GUYS

seven billion more things to do, gotta dash.

uuughhhh Academic Writing you can go climb a tree

I’ve been awake almost 24 hours now and I am convinced I am not dumb. I can talk my talk. I just cannot write whatever you want me to write and you CAN’T JUST MESS WITH MY OCD THIS MUCH u____u

[In Lings, we use Harvard. In English, we use MHRA. I had never heard of MHRA but I now realise that whatever they made me do during IB is very close. Thankfully without the underlining, though. But there are footnotes :> Even though inserting them is a paaain.]

crap and now I’m not even going ouuuuuuut tonight

brb feeling sorry for myself in a pile of books.